Stories of Hope
“I strongly recommend Rainfall Medicine, Dr Steve, and his entire staff. From my first interaction with Dr Steve, I could tell how deeply committed he is to heal trauma and improve his patients’ lives. He was very easy to talk to, and he connected many dots in my life which all stemmed from the trauma I’d been carrying- some of it without knowing I’d been carrying it. With both Dr Steve and therapist Gina Gratza (who I did my intake with) I was able to discuss very personal issues that I wanted to address, both from childhood and adulthood. I went to my first treatment feeling prepared to be inspired and let inner wisdom come through. It was amazing how ketamine allowed that to happen! A journey on ketamine is difficult to describe, but I found it to be both beautiful and awe inspiring. I came out of my first experience with a deep appreciation of my own strength. And I began to see that I didn’t need or deserve to carry so much guilt and trauma. More importantly though, I was able to see different ways to “be” in life, and that I had choices. During the integration sessions after treatment, I felt like I was talking to providers I’d known for years, not weeks. After each of my three sessions, Dr Steve asked me to email him about how I was doing, clearly demonstrating that he cares holistically for his patients, and that care doesn’t stop when you leave the building. Since treatment, I have experienced more hope and peace than I had beforehand. It’s shown up in practical ways as well, giving me the needed strength to tackle “problems” in my life. I have the ability to view things from a higher perspective and to see the relative size of my problems. My entire experience with Rainfall was positive. I can’t recommend them highly enough, and I’m sure I will go back at some point to continue on the journey I’ve begun.”– Ketamine Patient –
“At 58, I felt I had nothing to lose by investigating Ketamine. Despite therapy (CBT, EFT, EMDR) medication, meditation, and attending the Hoffman Institute, my life-long tendency toward melancholy (and suicidal ideation) still continued to show up. I’m so glad I did. The results were dramatic. What once felt immovable finally lifted. The best way I can put it is: I now experience a relationship with self that I never, EVER felt before. It’s positive, encouraging and loving, like having a built-in best friend. What’s more, this feeling has fallen into place on a level beyond my usual logical, “top-down” approach where I would tell myself to do things. It just…is. Dr. Steve Rosonke is extraordinary. His expertise and guidance made the therapy sessions the most powerfully effective I’ve experienced. Both he and Rainfall partner Elizabeth Hoke got things quickly, working through massive blocks of information with me on-the-spot. Beyond being remarkably insightful and efficient, their compassion was 100% sincere. I felt totally safe and seen. Thanks to my experience with them, I feel at peace. I would definitely encourage anyone who needs relief to contact them.”– Ketamine Patient –
“I started working with Dr. Steve Rosonke about a year ago for panic attacks I was having as a result of PTSD. The ketamine process is very comfortable and relaxing, basically I take a nap and have some vivid dreams/visions. Dr. Rosonke is extremely knowledgeable and kind, and he has helped me a great deal. I have not had any symptoms of PTSD for some time and my life is much easier and stress free. I highly recommend it as alternative therapy.”
– Ketamine Patient –
“I am a patient of Dr Steve and Liz utilizing ketamine. It was paramount that I find a very safe environment as I work through childhood trauma, anxiety, and a long struggle with addiction. I am so glad I had this experience at Rainfall Medicine. From the moment I stepped into the pre-appointment to the ketamine appointment I intuitively knew I was in the right place with the right people. No doubt about it. It’s difficult to share exactly what my ketamine experience was like but I can say this: I am so glad I did it. I feel more settled inside. Things were revealed that I was ready to see and hear.I highly recommend Dr Steve and Liz. They will be at your side every step of the way.”
– Ketamine Patient –
“I believe Dr. Steve genuinely cares for me as his patient, and I trust him as my guide. The focus of the therapy is trying to understand the roots of why I use substances, why I may feel depressed at times or more often, just feel less than fulfilled in my life.
The sessions have been in a fantastic building on Mississippi Ave., both the building and the office itself is a perfect setting for a therapeutic experience. During the experience, I lay on a comfortable couch with a fuzzy pillow, eyeshades on, a weighted blanket over me and headphones in. I think of this as airplane mode, and yes, you should remember to turn your phone on airplane mode before you settle in. The energy in the room with Dr. Steve is comforting, caring, safe and positive which allows me to fully immerse myself in the moment. I’ve heard ketamine can be different for different people, and different for the same person over different sessions, however it has been consistent for me. In one word, it is “intense”, it’s not the mere occasional geometric shapes, but being transported into a reality that is generally a three dimensional world much different than our own. It’s a reality with no body, a warped or nonexistent sense of time, music that I can see and not just hear that adds the flow between different areas and a deeply contemplative state where I have the ability to look at my own issues, desires and struggles as if I was an outside observer. I am generally anxious beforehand, but feel an overall sense of calm and relaxation, both during the experience, and after. As the ketamine wears off, it has the feeling oh happiness, lightness, and being reborn, with an actual reentry into my body. The actual feeling of ketamine is difficult to capture with words, and something in my opinion you need to try yourself to understand.
These experiences coupled with the guidance of Dr. Steve, have helped me realize the unbalance in my life and that there is a better way to seek happiness than in substances. I remain in long-term recovery from alcohol and quit using chewing tobacco half way through the six therapy sessions using ketamine. I have learned to take a personal break every day, generally going on a walk with my dog, and I attribute that to the sessions which are also times focused on myself outside of the normal stresses of everyday life. I have become more contemplative in nature, feel more centered, present when around others and more confident in where I’m headed in the future. For me, this is what therapy should actually feel like. Thank you, Dr. Steve for the time that you have spent with me and the care in which you provide the therapy.”
– Ketamine Patient –
“Working with Dr. Steve has helped me to make huge positive impacts on my well-being. I have been in therapy for over a year, working through some of the traumatic events in my life, and working to identify how they still pop up in the present. The ketamine medicine has helped to expedite aspects of this process. The ketamine medicine was very powerful for me. It helped me to see many of the subconscious beliefs I am holding and acting on, it also helped me discover a new compassionate lens from which I can see myself. After working with Dr. Steve over the span of two months I am feeling more connected to myself and others. Dr. Steve has been integral to this process for me, he helps me process my discoveries and uncover deeply held beliefs. If you’re interested in ketamine medicine, I would highly recommend Dr. Steve. He is not only very knowledgeable, but he truly cares about his patients and he is very capable of helping those who are seeking healing.”
– Ketamine Patient –
“As someone who has struggled for many years with addiction, then depression I have tried many different methods for relief. While I have had varying degrees of success with these routes I was often left wondering how much or even if these methods had any effect. It is so hard to accurately gauge the efficacy of them without considering the counterfactual of how I would be feeling without them. However my experience with Dr. Steve left no room for speculation about whether or not ketamine was capable of lifting me out of my ordinary depressive cycles.
My tendency would be to characterize my experience as ‘indescribable’, however I can offer a few observations about the entire process. First Dr. Steve met with me twice before our first medicine session where we explored the roots of my emotional anguish. His skill at discussing these difficult issues and his caring and compassionate approach will be obvious to anyone who works with him. I was very nervous about the experience but Dr. Steve did a great job of letting me know what to expect and making me feel truly comfortable and even excited about the whole thing. The experience(s) were truly transformative. I had the feeling of remembering a long forgotten truth about the fundamental joyous nature of the universe and my place in it. I was able to transcend the feedback loop of negative thinking that I had been caught in and see my situation from an entirely new perspective.
Since my sessions I relate to my thoughts/myself differently. I have been able to put some space between a thought as it arises and my need to immediately react to it. This work can be challenging but I felt safe and supported having someone so kind and competent taking me through it. If you are considering trying something different to deal with your emotional unrest I highly recommend talking to Dr. Steve about ketamine therapy.”
– Ketamine Patient –
“I am currently writing this while looking at the world in a positive, happy and secure way. Before I worked with Dr. Rosonke this would have been completely inconceivable to me. Previous to my visits, I was totally stressed out, could not sleep, had repetitive anxiety attacks and was generally unhappy.
What I have liked about my appointments with Dr. Rosonke is that he explored innovative treatments that were very effective for me while giving me options and tools to make progress myself. He properly diagnosed my complex PTSD and helped me identify some of the sources of the issues I was having. Initially he did some effective treatments that gave me the time and ability to start working with the tools and options he provided on my own.During covid because I am in multiple high-risk groups, I have been unable to see Dr. Rosonke the last year. Even though this has been the case, I have still been able to make steady progress by using the tools and options he provided me. In my opinion this is the most impressive thing about him is that he provided me some independence from him that allowed me to get better on my own while sheltering in place. I would highly recommend that you consider working with Dr. Rosonke.”– Ketamine Patient –
“I did significant research on consciousness medicine, its various practitioners and modalities. Doctor Rosonke’s previous experience working in some of the most high-stress environments in medicine (e.g., emergency rooms in major cities) gave me confidence that I would have a careful, knowledgeable guide during and after my clinical work. It’s natural to be nervous leading up to one’s first clinical session, and I was put at ease by Doctor Rosonke explaining both the chemistry and feelings I was experiencing. His clinic was professional and calming.
In addition to Doctor Rosonke’s reassuring energy, he was a surprisingly effective talk therapist in the weeks before and after my treatment, providing a best practices’ inventory of my strengths, anxieties and traumas in life. Creating this context and collaborative trust helped me realize the power to self-heal was always inside me and now I was empowered with a balance of new and old approaches. Doctor Rosonke recommended research, books and third-party experts to give context and second opinions for his work. As I explored these paths, it became clear Doctor Rosonke’s work was just the beginning of a deep network of unique talents. Over a year later, Doctor Rosonke is helpful integrating and building on this foundational work.
Prior to my work with Doctor Rosonke, my life was organized around a recurring set of day-to-day triggers of what I perceived could go wrong at home, at work or in fulfilling my life dreams. I was constantly over-preparing for events that were not likely to go wrong, then under-prepared when an ordinary life crisis would bubble up. Months before Doctor Rosonke prescribed anything clinical, he helped me understand that what I was experiencing was an unconscious loop between my past traumas, nervous system and a view of the world created by my culture, upbringing and education. He explained multiple modalities in traditional and non-traditional medicine to unpack, heal and integrate these phenomena, that my anxieties and traumas could be re-integrated as sources of wisdom, empowerment and self-healing. Compared to friends and family who have tried other practitioners and modalities, it appears my clinical experience with Doctor Rosonke then became many times more powerful. After only one clinical treatment, I had perspective not just on my own journey, but my family, community and culture. My days now begin with aligning my behavior with my now clear life purpose, which has counterintuitively made natural stressors less consuming.
Doctor Rosonke has the friendly, reassuring collaborative energy of a cool older sibling. He can cite science, chemistry and research like any MD, but he has a rare ability to listen, understand one’s journey and ask questions getting to the invisible roots of behavior. He is as gifted a talk therapist as an MD. His talent at integrating other experts’ opinions and modalities speaks to his own deep personal work whereas many practitioners can exhibit ego or fear of collaboration.”
– Ketamine Patient –
“I have suffered from anxiety and depression for several years with little relief from antidepressants or talk therapists. While I was exposed to spirituality as a child, I viewed it as an intellectually engaging subject that didn’t provide tangible emotional support during those difficult times. I’ve always been anxious about work and parenting and felt like I was never good enough at either. When I realized, to my dismay, that my anxieties were adversely affecting my daughter’s mental health I knew I had to find a way to address my issues.
It’s been less than three months since I first spoke with Dr. Rosonke and my self-concept and ability to handle stressful situations have undergone a major shift. Not only did I find relief from anxiety and depression, but also, very unexpectedly, I formed a new connection with spirituality on both an intellectual and emotional level. For me this has become a powerful and essential tool in managing my mental health and in making me more open to new experiences. It has been immeasurably valuable and continues to have a daily impact on my life. Dr. Rosonke and Liz have been extraordinarily compassionate, good-humored, and supportive, of me. They created an environment in which I felt increasingly safe probing and peeling away my own resistance to an emotional connection with spirituality which has always been a challenge for me.
Invariably, Dr Rosonke is spot on in identifying issues that are important for me to examine. It didn’t take long to establish trust and become comfortable talking with this kind and non-judgmental person about difficult subjects. Both Liz and he were wonderful at calming my apprehensions about the ketamine experience and letting me progress at a comfortable pace. I’m amazed that within a month of starting ketamine I was no longer fearful of losing control.
Through the sessions with Dr. Rosonke and Liz, I’ve been examining the roots of my anxiety and learning how to relate to myself and others less critically and with more compassion. I find myself willing to push the limits of my fear of uncomfortable experiences and unfamiliar people. There is no longer a need to self-soothe with mindless TV or unhealthy eating habits. I have a healthier connection with myself and my children, and I’m not sinking under the weight of my own expectations at work. With Dr. Rosonke’s help I see more clearly that I have the resources within me to help myself.
I know this will be an ongoing journey and that there’s no quick fix, but finally, I have direction, hope, and the tools to move forward.”
– Ketamine Patient –